Hanuman Chalisa (New) by Udit Narayan

CHILD CARE 26

I Few Days Later I Was Told I Could Start The First Stage Of Treatment And The Only Problem Would Be Moving On To The Next Stage If The Infections Did Not Clear Up. It Was A Huge Relief And My Spirits When Shooting Up Again.After A Week Of Injections The Next Scan Again Showed Disaster. There Were Too Few Follicles They Were Very Small  And Then A Blood Test Showed That My Oestrogen Level Was About A Fifth What It Should Have Been. The Drug Dosages Were Increased Sharply. The Next Scan Again Showed Up Problems And There Was A Lot Of Doing And Forging Before It Was Finally Agreed I Could Go Ahead With The Egg Collection. It Was All Quite Agonizing And I Felt I Was Going Up And Down Like A Yo-Yo.

               I’d Planned To Have The Egg Collection Done Under Sedation, And Had Even Got Down To The Theatre, When The Doctor Said That, Because Of All The Complications, It Would Have To Be Done By Laparoscopy With A General Anaesthetic. By This Time I Was Sedated And Feeling Quite Cheerful And Was Just Relieved To Have Got This Far. For The First Time I Thought It Might Actually Work.

               I Came Round From The Anaesthetic To Find My Stomach Looked A Real Mess Like Someone Had Taken A Flick Knife To It. There Were Two Incisions With Stitches And A Third  Small Cut. It Was A Terrible Shock. My Husband Was Sitting Looking Very Pleased With Himself And The Sample  He’d Just Produced. He Had Quite Enjoyed Himself. While I Was Feeling Pretty Groggy. Still, The Embryologist Said They Had Got Five Eggs. Although Later It Turned Out That One Was Not A Proper Egg. So There Were Only Four. We Felt Very Pleased. A Bit Prematurely It Turned Out Because Only One Egg Fertilized. The Embryo Transfer Was A Bit Of A Disaster Too. Because The Catheter Would Not Go In, So The Embryo Had To Be Put Into A Stiffer Catheter And The Whole Thing Done Again.

                        The Next Two Weeks Were Awful. Time When Very Slowly. I Had Always Looked On This As A Trial Run, But The Prospect Of Failure Was Daunting. The Hormones Made Me Feel Pregnant So It Some Ways I Was Quite Elated. But The Thought Of It All Going Wrong Was Just Terrible. I Started To Think That I Might Not Be Able To Go Through All This Again. After About Ten Days, I Got Stomach Pains, The Pregnancy Symptoms  Stated To Disappear And I Knew It Was Going To Be No Good. My Period Started, And Was Very Heavy, So I Didn’t Even Finish The Progesterone Course.